tanagirl123

I just got out of the shower. Smiling as I brush my hair. The man I've fallen in love with since high school is finally going out with me. My bright red dress fits like a glove. The black eyeliner making my big brown eyes pop. I curl my bright red lips into a smile, showing my pearly white teeth. I hear my roommate yell that he's here. Rushing to put on my golden heals. Running out of the bathroom, noticing him chuckling as I stumble out of the hall. My cheeks burn a bright red at this reaction, to my clumsiness. I give him a weak smile, before he pulls me into a kiss. His lips gently move against mine, making me relax. H smiles while pulling

Yes, I have friends. So what I don't have many. I only need a few amazing friends. Not many fake friends. Yes, I'm upset over that but I have friends to help me through it. They are always there for me. No matter how mad I make them. Nor how sad I can make them. Yes, I love all my friends. I do have one friend that I wish we could be something more. But he is too blind to see that. He is always saying that he can't find the right girl. I wish that he could see that I want a chance to see if I'm that girl. Yes, I still like him even though he is codependent. I've met people in my life so far that have made changes to me. I laugh because he t

My dreams are not normal dreams. My dreams are the future. My dreams are pain. My dreams are my past. My dreams are something that you'll never understand. Even the people who have known me for their whole life will never understand. My dreams are something that everyone thinks about but never says. They're full of hatred and suffering. I have learned to accept these thoughts. I used to fear them but they no longer give me fear. I can feel the cuts and scares from these dreams. Sometime these dreams are happy but not for long. I always remember every little detail. No matter how freighting they are. I always feel a little bit of my soul leave

No, I won't let you in my life. I've seen what you've done. I may not be all that special but you won't come back into my life. I have already told you that I have given up in love. You may think that you know my past but you never know it fully. You don't know why I do what I do. You don't know why I don't really want friends. I won't tell you either for that is none of your business. I'm allowed to be sad  and not wish to find love. You say you've found love but you haven't. I may care for people but I will not cry over them. No tears means no weakness is shown. My past is dark which in turn made me who I am. No weakness shall ever be shown

I give up in finding love. I give up in pure happiness. I give up in trying to do good in school. I give up in everything but life. I want to give up but why can't i? No one is stopping me. Who would care if I was gone. No one cares about anyone other than themselves. I'm no longer going to try and change people. I give up in making the world a better place. But I won't give up in changing myself. People will tell me lies and bring me down. But I shall stand right back up no matter how horrible it is. My dear friend you may think that I don't have hope. I've only lost hope in love. I won't give up in trying to make others happy. Nor my family

all that I ask you is why. Why do people die?Why do people kill? why are people sad? But there's one thing that kills me. Why do people cheat on one another? Why do they lie? I've been hurt by this before. The people I love have been hurt by this. Then why do people do it then? If they wanted to be with that person why weren't they in the first place. Why do you have to cause them so much pain. Why don't they feel ashamed? Why do my friends push down their feelings. Why do I wear a mask and hide my feelings. Why wont they let themselves heal? I don't care how much they say they love a person. I will never believe it. They are only with them b

I can feel happiness. I can feel sadness. I can feel love. I can feel my heart breaking. Everyone can hurt someone they love. We all make stupid mistakes. I can be stupid sometimes. I made the mistake of letting my heart being out for the taking. I should not look for love. I shouldn't look for something that doesn't exist. Someone should not be in control of my feelings. I should not beg someone to stay in my life. I should not feel sadness towards you. It should be happiness. You made me stronger. Now it takes a lot more to take me down. My feelings only depend on me. They can tell me things to break me down. It wont though. Only one person

I'm not as strong as I seem. I may be physically strong but not mentally. I won't go on rollarcoasters or go in haunted houses. But if you hurt someone I love you are dead to me. Then why does something so little break me? Why do I believe someone when they tell me that they love me? I know it can't be true, but why does it still hurt me? How can I be strong when things like this kill me. I don't want to be hurt, yet I also don't want to hurt anybody. I've been told that the person who cares the least wins. But that's not me. When I love I love hard. It's just in my nature. Which makes me weak. Don't let my smile fool you. For all you know I

Love is something we cherish. It brings us happiness and sadness. It brings people together. But what is love? We don't know, do we? Then why do we always use this word. Love can feel like differnt things. Also things that aren't love may feel the same. Why is it we get nervous around someone we like is love? So our normal fears are love. You can not say you love someone after one day. That is not love that you are feeling. You can claim you love someone after years. When nothing can tear you apart is love. Then why is it when we get on the phone with our partner we say I love you. How can we know if this love? You can love family and friends